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I am an Ordained Minister, a Shaman, a Reiki Master Teacher, an Aromatherapist, a Massage Therapist, an Herbalist in training, & a Crystal Healer in training! I am also a Writer! I am one of the Neo- Celí Dé (a form of Celtic christian mysticism based on original early Christianity, & certain Celtic philosophies, perspectives, & certain Druidic elements). I am also a proud member of Clan MacKay. NO PARTIES, JUST PATRIOTISM!

These are a few of my favorite things!;

  • The Harry Potter series! both the movies and the books by J.K. Rowling!
  • Twilight book saga, and movie series by Stephanie Meyer's!

Tuesday, November 24, 2009



When hell is all you ever known,
when war has torn you to the bone,
when your tired and give out,
and find yourself subject to doubt!
Then you'll welcome death to come in!
He'll seem like an old and faithful friend!
The devil everywhere you look!
No one to let you off the hook!

When every word in every book,
has run the course that silence took,
now your back right at the start,
still no peace, so dies your heart!

Every child soldier knows,
there's no escape from what we stole!
Generations come and go,
searching for a peace they'll never know!

So they'll look unto the end
for lord death, their only friend!

Where is love and where is God?
Where is the peace in this facade?
This life is very cold indeed,
if the best part's just to be freed,
from this sinful mortal scheme!
(And I hear them scream)
Death God's gift please come for me!

Look to hell; the children’s eyes!
What you'll see will then surprise!
Speaking of the sacrifice;
Every child soldier knows they'll die!

the end!

I dedicate this one to all the children affected by war, having to fight a war, or who have been ravaged, damaged, orphaned, imprisoned, raped, or killed by war!
Blessed Be, "suffer the little children" indeed!
Rev. Loush

This poem which I wrote several years ago (which I revised for this blog) was inspired by two major things! One was a clip in an Avril Lavigne video, for her rendition of knockin on heavens door! The clip shows very young children with empty eyes smoking and holding large loaded guns! The second inspiration was a song by Pat Benatar called hell is for children! there was also a documentary about child soldiers that i watched which also influenced me in writing this!

Inspirational Bible verses; Installment 1

God is good! I want to take an opportunity to share some of the verses from scripture that inspire me daily from the word of God.

Ps 98:4
4 Make a joyful noise unto the LORD, all the earth: make a loud noise, and rejoice, and sing praise.

John 8:31-32
31 Then said Jesus to those Jews which believed on him, If ye continue in my word, then are ye my disciples indeed;
32 And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.

John 14:6-21
6 Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.
7 If ye had known me, ye should have known my Father also: and from henceforth ye know him, and have seen him.
8 Philip saith unto him, Lord, shew us the Father, and it sufficeth us.
9 Jesus saith unto him, Have I been so long time with you, and yet hast thou not known me, Philip? he that hath seen me hath seen the Father; and how sayest thou then, Shew us the Father?
10 Believest thou not that I am in the Father, and the Father in me? the words that I speak unto you I speak not of myself: but the Father that dwelleth in me, he doeth the works.
11 Believe me that I am in the Father, and the Father in me: or else believe me for the very works' sake.
12 Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that believeth on me, the works that I do shall he do also; and greater works than these shall he do; because I go unto my Father.
13 And whatsoever ye shall ask in my name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son.
14 If ye shall ask any thing in my name, I will do it.
15 If ye love me, keep my commandments.
16 And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you for ever;
17 Even the Spirit of truth; whom the world cannot receive, because it seeth him not, neither knoweth him: but ye know him; for he dwelleth with you, and shall be in you.
18 I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you.
19 Yet a little while, and the world seeth me no more; but ye see me: because I live, ye shall live also.
20 At that day ye shall know that I am in my Father, and ye in me, and I in you.
21 He that hath my commandments, and keepeth them, he it is that loveth me: and he that loveth me shall be loved of my Father, and I will love him, and will manifest myself to him.

John 1:1-14

1 In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.
2 The same was in the beginning with God.
3 All things were made by him; and without him was not any thing made that was made.
4 In him was life; and the life was the light of men.
5 And the light shineth in darkness; and the darkness comprehended it not.
6 There was a man sent from God, whose name was John.
7 The same came for a witness, to bear witness of the Light, that all men through him might believe.
8 He was not that Light, but was sent to bear witness of that Light.
9 That was the true Light, which lighteth every man that cometh into the world.
10 He was in the world, and the world was made by him, and the world knew him not.
11 He came unto his own, and his own received him not.
12 But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:
13 Which were born, not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God.
14 And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us, (and we beheld his glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father,) full of grace and truth.

John 1:24-51
24 And they which were sent were of the Pharisees.
25 And they asked him, and said unto him, Why baptizest thou then, if thou be not that Christ, nor Elias, neither that prophet?
26 John answered them, saying, I baptize with water: but there standeth one among you, whom ye know not;
27 He it is, who coming after me is preferred before me, whose shoe's latchet I am not worthy to unloose.
28 These things were done in Bethabara beyond Jordan, where John was baptizing.
29 The next day John seeth Jesus coming unto him, and saith, Behold the Lamb of God, which taketh away the sin of the world.
30 This is he of whom I said, After me cometh a man which is preferred before me: for he was before me.
31 And I knew him not: but that he should be made manifest to Israel, therefore am I come baptizing with water.
32 And John bare record, saying, I saw the Spirit descending from heaven like a dove, and it abode upon him.
33 And I knew him not: but he that sent me to baptize with water, the same said unto me, Upon whom thou shalt see the Spirit descending, and remaining on him, the same is he which baptizeth with the Holy Spirit.
34 And I saw, and bare record that this is the Son of God.
35 Again the next day after John stood, and two of his disciples;
36 And looking upon Jesus as he walked, he saith, Behold the Lamb of God!
37 And the two disciples heard him speak, and they followed Jesus.
38 Then Jesus turned, and saw them following, and saith unto them, What seek ye? They said unto him, Rabbi, (which is to say, being interpreted, Master,) where dwellest thou?
39 He saith unto them, Come and see. They came and saw where he dwelt, and abode with him that day: for it was about the tenth hour.
40 One of the two which heard John speak, and followed him, was Andrew, Simon Peter's brother.
41 He first findeth his own brother Simon, and saith unto him, We have found the Messiah, which is, the Christ.
42 And he brought him to Jesus. And when Jesus beheld him, he said, Thou art Simon the son of Jona: thou shalt be called Cephas, which is by interpretation, A stone.
43 The day following Jesus would go forth into Galilee, and findeth Philip, and saith unto him, Follow me.
44 Now Philip was of Bethsaida, the city of Andrew and Peter.
45 Philip findeth Nathanael, and saith unto him, We have found him, of whom Moses in the law, and the prophets, did write, Jesus of Nazareth, the son of Joseph.
46 And Nathanael said unto him, Can there any good thing come out of Nazareth? Philip saith unto him, Come and see.
47 Jesus saw Nathanael coming to him, and saith of him, Behold an Israelite indeed, in whom is no guile!
48 Nathanael saith unto him, Whence knowest thou me? Jesus answered and said unto him, Before that Philip called thee, when thou wast under the fig tree, I saw thee.
49 Nathanael answered and saith unto him, Rabbi, thou art the Son of God; thou art the King of Israel.
50 Jesus answered and said unto him, Because I said unto thee, I saw thee under the fig tree, believest thou? thou shalt see greater things than these.
51 And he saith unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto you, Hereafter ye shall see heaven open, and the angels of God ascending and descending upon the Son of man.

these are just a few of the verses that inspire me in my faith! Later I will post more of the verses that are great inspiration to me!


there is a fictional supernatural suspense thriller, called the prophecy! This is a movie trilogy! Although a fourth and fifth movie were made that have little to do with the original trilogy. In the third movie there is a quote that has always stayed with me! This quote speaks to the truth of the quality of our highest human nature because as scripture says we are made in the image of God! There is a hope amidst the shadows of doubt; a light in the darkness simply because we know this truth!

The quote is by a character; an angel talking who had briefly lost his way and his “faith” you might say! When he found his way again he ruminated on his new found perspective;
“for the first time in a gazillion years I get to know what the message is” “it isn’t a mindless, indifferent, blind universe…it never was” “in the end there is still The Word everywhere; in heaven and its angels, in the earth and stars, even in the darkest part of the human soul! It is there that The Word burned brightest, and for a moment I was blinded”!

Amen, and Blessed Be!

The powerful, and classic Lavender Essential Oil!

The power of lavender oil is staggering! It can be used to heal burns, and insomnia. it has chemical properties which make it anti-septic, anti-viral, anti-fungal, anti-biotic, and anti-inflammatory. It is safe to use on any part of the body (avoid the eyes of course). It has been used for healing and beautification. It can be used to treat dry skin because it hydrates and locks in hydration. In fact next to air and water, lavender essential oil is the most oxygenating substance on the planet that we currently know of! It can actually aid in cancer treatments to help reprogram the d.n.a. of the human body to eliminate various cancers and toxins from the body. In other words; It can give signal to the body to boost the immune system so that it can fight off many different germs, illnesses, toxins, microbials, and other interruptions to our balanced health! Now the thing to remember about all essential oils is that to work they must be pure! Only a hand full of companies exist in america that provide such, safe, pure, therapeutic grade, one hundred percent essential organic oils!Among these companies are young living, aura cacia, and flower road therapies! However the purest and most powerful of these in all my many years experience as an aromatherapist is young living essential oils. I have had the most positive, powerful experiences and real results using these oils. This, and talking to a couple of botanists led me to become an independent distributor for Young Living! When you buy an essential oil check the label, and know what you are buying! Besides dry skin,lavender has helped to heal chapped lips, and can be used on every skin type for a multitude of skin issues. Lavender brings calmness. However the one thing it can not be used for is to get energy. Lavender is a sedative, so remember not to use it during certain activities like driving, test taking, at work, or during sex! It can help high blood pressure! When i suffered from high blood pressure i went through four years of no one believing me because i was "too young" to have it. Then one day my nose began to bleed and did not stop for four hours. I was taken to the hospital where it was determined that i was at heart attack blood pressure levels. There they finally looked at my family's pension towards having high blood pressure and diabetes, as well as my weight issues. They immediately put me on some so called medication which for the full two and a half years of me taking it kept me a zombie. Finally i had enough! I got off their poison, which only suppressed symptoms and i began to help myself instead. Through prayer, meditation, visualization, mantras, essential oils, certain herbal combinations, and a change in diet i changed my life, my health, and my course in life! Now i want to help others do the same thing! take back their own power over their lives and health! Lavender can help erase the smell of cigarette smoke. Lavender is the most useful and universal of all the essential oils, consequently it is the most used. To many healers and their clients it has become a cliche'. Well cliche' or not it is a powerful healing substance that works! If you can have only one essential in your possession make sure it is versatile lavender!

bright blessings!

Manifesto of Hate drafted by The Evil Evangelical Agenda!

Recently several well known preachers who have in the past been outspoken opponents of each other have finally found a cause that they can agree on. These preachers have banded together and drafted a manifesto declaring them-selves the only true Christians. And what have they formed this unholy alliance over? Well you might ask! They have decided that all their petty differences can be overcome to fight the cause of gay rights! Yes folks, you read that right! They have come together to fight gay people from being able to have civil liberties which they say we don’t deserve! But more than this, they have declared war on any other form of Christianity that doesn’t hate the gay community. They have said that anyone who shows love and tolerance, or a Christ like attitude towards gay people are not Christians. Once again the evil evangelical agenda has found a way to manifest in a new and more disgusting form! I call on all the real Christians out there to band together and draft their own manifesto’s and declarations! Let these people know that they are not real Christians, that they are not the only ones willing to fight for a cause, and that the real church will stand up to help wipe out the evil of the evangelical agenda! This new evil document is called the Manhattan Declaration! And people are actually agreeing with this evil document because they are being brainwashed into being afraid of anyone and everyone who is different than they are! They are being told that all their problems can be blamed on other people; like the gay community! The evil evangelical agenda has to be stopped! We must fight this, because in the case of human originated evil there is one truth that stands out above all others; “evil thrives when good men do nothing”! We must stand up and declare the real truth of Christ’s Love, and his holy word! The people who drafted this manifesto of hate and intolerance have nothing to do with Christ; we can see this from their absolute lack of spiritual fruits which scripture tells us is the only way to really tell if someone is a true christian. Christ would not have tolerated these Pharisees. In fact he would have taken a horse whip to these greedy money hoarding thieves and chased them right out of the temple! How do I know this? Because that is just what he did when he was here! These people stand in stark contrast to Christ and the example he gave us! These people make a mockery of the faith! However my real hope is in Christ and not in man, so I always have hope for the future! And because Christ’s Love reigns supreme in all the universe I can see a bright future ahead; past all the troubles, trials, and tribulations! The future looks bright and good to me because I know Christ! Don’t loose heart people! Never give up! Hope is all around us waiting for us to see it, and let it into our hearts!

Bright blessings! Hope is just around the corner! We will overcome by God’s Amazing Grace!

Arabian Jewish gay love inside hell!

So I just got through watching this depressing documentary called zero degrees of separation, on a two men who were lovers in isreal. One was jewish and the other was arab. You may have noticed I said arab and not palestinian. Well that is because palestinian is a modern made up word with no historical validation. Arab on the other hand is a very old word indeed. I have mixed thoughts on the state of isreal. So these are my random thoughts on this issue. Muslims have over thirty countries that they can live in, and jewish people don’t even get one whole country to themselves. They only get one state and people want to take even that away from them. This is wrong! However there are also other issues to be considered. How you treat people when you come into power is one such issue. The state of isreal has treated the arab peoples who live there beyond horrible. Their actions against arab peoples have been horrific. I don’t see why they have to arrest and torture arab people, or why they had to round them up like cattle and get them out of the state. This is just ridiculous. Two wrongs don’t make a right. In the past jewish people have been abused so they should know better than to become abusers themselves. And before anyone starts calling me an anti-semite, I am most certainly not! I am all for jewish rights, including the right of a free jewish state to exist. I think it should be a humane one however!in fact anyone who knows me, knows of my vast admiration for the jewish people and the hebrew spiritual traditions. i think that isreal has done a lot to help humanity evolve! The jews and the arabs could have lived together in peace and created a new generation of middle eastern people who understood tolerance and knew how to coexist. They could have created a lasting peace, love, and friendship. Instead they are taught to hate and kill each-other. At some point this may have been the fault of the muslim world. However america has played its part in helping create terrorists. But isreal itself is the real source of creating terrorists at this time. If I grew up an arab child in isreal or the surrounding areas I would probably hate the state of isreal too! The two men in the video were ripped apart because of vague laws and another waste of space cop with a god complex who did all he could to have the arab man deported. Maybe the cops wife should be deported as well, so he could know how it feels to loose the one you love! I think it is wrong that America is even in the middle east to begin with. We are out there trying to police the rest of the world when we can’t even take care of ourselves. And we do all this while holding ourselves up as some sort of example as how the rest of the world should live, when our gay citizens don’t have the basic, equal, human, civil right to get married. We feed the worlds starving kids and don’t feed our own. We help out underprivileged families in other countries but don’t even help our poor neighbors here. In fact it is out of the ordinary where i live to even know your neighbors or have interaction with them. The state of isreal is a cruel and merciless beast. Much like the muslim terrorist groups. Is america really so ignorant as to think our presence there will stop their problems? Their problems started a few thousand years ago and never stopped. They have been fighting amongst themselves forever and will continue to do so until their children grow tired of it and say “No More” whether we are there or not! Evangelicals have made it their mission to demonize the arabs like they demonize gay people. Such is the nature of the evil evangelical agenda. In christian teachings being a part of spiritual isreal has nothing to do with being born jewish any longer. After Christ came, those people that accepted him are spiritual isreal. Being a christian is being part of the kingdom of God or spiritual isreal. This is at least the traditional Christian standpoint. I know it is unpopular to say so however, and that this line of thought will not be shared by all, and that is alright! Everyone is entitled to their own opinion! Physical Israel; well that has deteriorated to a whole new level of degradation. They have began to erect a barrier to keep out arab peoples. This is nonsense! Didn’t we learn a lesson from the falling of the berlin wall. We as humans need to be knocking all the barriers between us down, not erecting more of them; as if we needed or could survive anymore! The state of isreal will be judged just like the rest of us for how it treats people. It needs to come to terms with that, and begin to make up for all its wrong doing. The muslim countries of the world need to stop picking on everyone else and get a life! America needs to get real with itself and realize that we are helping generate and perpetuate the problems in the middle east, as well as all the ones here. Many jewish people that I have listened to in isreal don’t have problems with their arab brothers. In fact they seem to have a real genuine, and general affection for them. There are many cases where an arab and a jew fall in love. And then the state of isreal or extremist family members on either side, have to stamp out that love. And because the poor people over there are so beaten down already they don’t have the strength to tell the world to go to hell, and their love fails. In fact it feels to many of them as if they are already in hell! I was sad to see these two men who had been through so much, ripped apart. I was sad to see them loose all contact with each other. This war; all the wars need to stop. Will this happen? Most people will say no! I prefer to have hope where none can be seen! If an arab and a jew can fall in love inside hell, then I think there is hope for the entire world to fall in love with life itself once again. I believe future generations will live in love, tolerance, and peace!

I want to personally thank Elle Flanders for having the courage to make this film, to tell their story, and stand up against the bigotry that has appeared in this country since 9/11. I want to thank you for reminding us that no issue is one sided. Jewish people are not always victims, and arab people are not all terrorists, and love can and sometimes does exist between these two peoples. I want to thank you for standing up to the people who have called you anti-semetic and saying No I am not! I do not believe for one second the Elle is an anti-semite. I believe that she told two stories of destroyed love, which reflect a war torn section of the world! I believe that there is hope, that jewish people and arab people can demonstrate the very best of human nature, and that one day they will. I believe that children on both sides will lead the way to a better tomorrow, and I want to thank Elle for rekindling my hope for the future once again! Your film is an inspiration because it is four peoples truths! These four individual truths can help show us all THE TRUTH! And after all The Truth shall set us free!

Bright Blessings! And Bright Hope for the future!

Elle F.

Hero's to the Gay Community; Installment 1

There are some hero’s to the gay community that I have wanted to write about for a while. I just want to acknowledge what they have done to help the gay community so that we remember what they did for us and so that others may follow their examples!

There is a young boy by the name of Will Phillips (age 10) who got into to trouble at school (and faced the fire), by standing up to the school over the fact that he exercised his right to not stand up and say the pledge of allegiance. After he found out that his parents gay friends did not have the right to get married, he decided that the pledge of allegiance was hypocritical. He is right of course. He said that there is not justice and freedom for all! He is hero! “and a child shall lead them”; this quote from scripture was talking about the Christ child, however it is also my belief that it was also speaking of a spiritual principle that teaches that children can be just as important spiritual guides as the most learned people on the planet, because their sense of right is simple and honest. Children know truth unless it is driven out of them to do so! I thank God that indigo children like Will are here to show us a better way!

Will P.

Pauley Perrette a well known actress on the N.C.S.I. show had a commitment ceremony with her fiancé Michael Bosman. The couple has said that they refuse to marry until her gay friends also have the right to get married. This is a huge sacrifice on her and her husbands part! They are hero’s to the gay community! They are so very brave for making such a hard decision! Other Hollywood couples have also become hero’s and echoed this action. Among these celebrity couples are Charlize theron and her partner Stuart Townsend, as well as Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie. Brad Pitt gave a huge sum of money to a campaign to help fight the ban on gay marriage! These people are using their position, their wealth, and their power to help make the world a brighter place!

Pauley P. and Michael B.

Charlize T. and Stuart T.

Brad P. and Angelina J.

The second golden girl to die Bea Arthur left a large sum of money in her will to various charities. One of these charities is the Ali Forney Center of New York an organization that helps to shelter and house homeless youth from the G.L.B.T. community to which she left 300,000 dollars. By being an activists this acclaimed and talented actress showed compassion, dignity, grace, love, light, and class! She is a role model that people should look up to!

Bea A. with director of the Ali Forney center Carl Siciliano

Daniel Radcliff best known for playing harry potter, and staring in the controversial stage play equus has not only donated to the Trevor project but has lent his celebrity. The Trevor project is a non-profit organization which operates the only nationwide, around-the-clock crisis and suicide prevention helpline for lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender youths. The Trevor Project was founded in 1998 by three filmmakers whose film, “Trevor,” a comedy drama about a gay teenager who attempts to take his life. It received the 1994 Academy Award for Best live action short film. Since its inception The Trevor Helpline has received hundreds of thousands of calls from LGBT youth across the country.
Daniel has been quoted as saying; “I am very pleased to begin my support of The Trevor Project, which saves lives every day through its critical work, It’s extremely distressing to consider that in 2009 suicide is a top three killer of young people, and it’s truly devastating to learn that LGBTQ (Q = questioning)youth are up to four times more likely to attempt suicide than their heterosexual peers. I deeply hope my support can raise the organization’s visibility so even more despondent youth become aware of The Trevor Helpline’s highly trained counselors and Trevor’s many other resources. It’s vitally important that young people understand they are not alone and, perhaps even more important, that their young lives have real value.”

Daniel R.

these people are an inspiration to me and to all enlightened people!

I will continue to write various installments of this blog where I will post more hero’s as time goes by!

Blessed Be!

important links!

http://www.danradcliffe.com/ here you can find Daniels charity!


Friday, November 20, 2009

Author Spotlight; Rick R. Reed Gay Fiction Author!

Go Buy This Writers Books if you enjoy gay fiction! He is One of The Most Recognized and Celebrated Authors of Gay Fiction! The link is... http://www.rickrreed.com/

Rick R. Reed







I used to be Myspace friends with this author several years ago and obtained his permission back then to do this Spotlight Blog Post about him. The original was done in 2009, I have now re-vamped and updated this post so as to showcase some of his new works.

On a side note; Isn't he freaking gorgeous? The correct answer to this question is; Yes, Yes, Yes, Oh Yes!!! Lol... So let's here it for the hottness of Rick R. Reed!!!

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

we lost our health care freedom!!!!!!!!!!!

Well i just now found out that we have officially lost our health care freedom. obama's repugnant bill passed the other night! Now we will all have to gather together to fight, to take back our health care freedom! People, keep saying HELL NO to vaccinations for your children. You just may save their life. If necessary move to another country! Take your kids out of public school and send them to Montessori school or do home school! Protect yourselves. Treat your selves at home! Go to naturopaths! Learn how to keep your Immune system strong organically! Do what ever you have to do but do not submit to this new machination of tyranny that obama and his minions concocted! Civil disobedience is our only option now! Shield yourselves and keep you and your children off the radar! Don't let them get you, or force you into any decision you know is wrong! We must fight this. We must vote, and petition, and write bills and laws and try to get them passed! We must not be complacent! we must fight!:)We must demand they give us back our freedom!Every one, now is the time to wear dark kelly green ribbons in support for health care freedom of choice! Tell obama that we are neither communists or socialists and we don't want to be, and in fact we refuse to be!

Who’s to blame for violence against gay people? The evangelical agenda!

Who’s to blame for violence against gay people?

The evangelical agenda of fear, hate, ignorance, and intolerance;

A few years ago I heard a preacher speaking on an interview? He was being asked questions on his views about the murder of a young gay man. The person interviewing him asked what he thought about the individual who had murdered the young man. He looked, to his credit; dumbfounded and saddened. But then he said that he did not understand where the young man learned to hate someone; where he learned that it was ok to hurt someone like that. I wanted to jump through the screen and slap him. I wanted to tell him that it was so called Christian preachers in the modern church who told that young man that it was alright to murder his fellow man. Because that preacher and many like him stand at the pulpit every Sunday and tell people that their fellow man, their brothers and sisters of the world, their neighbors; any one who doesn’t believe what they do are evil, wrong, and corrupt. They tell their congregations who to blame for their problems, and who to fear. They tell them that anyone not of their point of view is less than; less than human, less than God’s child, and more, that they are sinful abominations, and mistakes! When they tell their congregations this they call it telling them the truth, or speaking the will of god, or preaching the gospel. However it is none of these things. It is an agenda of evil. These preachers are being used as instruments of spiritual darkness to rip humanity apart, to rip the church apart, to rip families apart, and to rip gay people away from the love of God! When these preachers stand up and say that ignorant phrase “love the sinner, hate the sin”, than they are making it acceptable in their religion for people to hate one another. This agenda of hate and ignorance has taken over America. Because most human beings can not separate who someone is from what they do. They do not know how to look at a person without looking at their actions! From the time we are children we here a phrase that is ingrained into all that we know; “actions speak louder than words”! And from the time we are children we are taught the great lie that “sticks, and stones may break my bones, but words can never hurt me”. not only has this lie aggrieved us as a people, not only can words hurt, but sometimes the words we speak keep on going; until they find someone in the wrong situation. Not only do words hurt, but they can kill! Or, we can wield them to create; to bring forth life, light, love, and healing. we can use them to destroy, or to build up, to grow, to evolve, and to empower!
We can use our words to bring either devastation or hope. I wonder if evangelicals ever think about which way God would want them to use their words! I have written many times how the words that were shot at me by my father and the public school system, and it’s students were like bullets firing into my heart, my mind, my body, and my soul. They made me small and weak, and I allowed myself to become a victim. Well I was wrong. I was wrong not to stand up for myself and to keep a shred of courage, conviction, and dignity. But then I too grew up believing that words lack any real power to hurt someone else even though experience had taught me differently. Words cause some scars that linger on, and stain the human soul, and never quite heal but leave their mark, and make lasting life long impressions on us, and in us. American evangelicals are all of sudden so concerned with civil liberties. They want the right to the freedom of speech but they want to ignore every other liberty guaranteed to other people. Like the right to the pursuit of happiness, the right to speak our truth, the right to marry, and the right to worship as we see fit. They want all freedoms and rights promised to them, but they seek to deny those same rights to the rest of us. They have proven through their actions that they are power mad, and hungry. They have god complexes. They have proven through their lack of spiritual fruits that they are not God’s representatives at all. Nor are they the voice of the true church! They seek to control, coerce, condemn, corrupt, and convert all of us to their way of thinking, living, and being. They do not, can not, and will not speak for us. They can only speak against us, and against the truth! They are agents of evil. I would like to tell the evangelicals that they are either for us or against us, and if they are against us then they are also against God who made us in his image and never makes mistakes! You can not make people love God and go to heaven, and live how you want them to live, or think how you want them to think. You can’t “save” people through fear, or from their truths. And even more than this, you shouldn’t seek to if you belong to God. This was not the way Christ did things; and he is suppose to be the example that we are trying to live up to. He didn’t inspire fear, but love! He didn’t try to scare people into heaven or demand that they behave in any particular way. His ways were righteous with love and it made people want to evolve themselves. He met people where they were. The evangelicals in stark contrast to Christ and his teachings try to make people come to God through fear, through hate and violence. They try to scare people into choosing God by putting on plays like hell house. And the world at large thinks that this hate is what Christianity is all about! They are turning people away from God instead of towards him. When angels that are of God come the first thing they say is fear not! But that isn’t the message put forth by the evangelical agenda which says fear everything; be afraid, very afraid. Everything they do is more anti-christian than the last. They are creating these young murderers and monsters. They are planting the seeds of murder, hate, fear, and violence in the hearts of the young children, and foolish adults in their congregations. They are inciting attacks on the gay community. They are in the business of making killers! That is who they are and what they do! It is people like fred phelps and anita bryant that are causing physical harm and even the sin of murder to happen on poor innocent souls like Mathew Shepard. They have created a war that is being waged on us! it is time for evangelicals to wake up and end the war; to end their sins against us and against God, by realizing that words do matter. Words can hurt. Words can kill. Words can cripple. Words become actions. Those actions in turn have consequences. Some Gay people have paid with their lives for the words that evangelicals have spoke. Sometimes the right to live in peace outweighs the right to free speech. If we are to truly hold the right people accountable for the murders of members of the gay community then we must not only punish those who actually committed the murders but also those that incited them, inspired them, and made their actions alright and righteous! I wanted to tell that preacher that it was him who told those murderers that it was ok because of the words he uttered from the pulpit every Sunday. Why is it that evangelicals feel it is ok to preach a rigid adherence and literally interpretation to some parts of the bible while completely ignoring other parts to suit their agenda?

There is a Melissa Etheridge song about Mathew Shepard called scarecrow. In it there is a line that asks “where can these monsters hide”; speaking of murderers. They are all around us and we are helping make them in church. It is time we who are Christians realize this and put a stop to it.

A section from the song scarecrow;

“…We all gasp this can't happen here
We're all much too civilized
Where can these monsters hide

But they are knocking on our front door
They're rocking in our cradles
They're preaching in our churches
And eating at our tables…

I search my soul
My heart and in my mind
To try and find forgiveness
This is someone child
With pain unreconciled
Filled up with father's hate
Mother's neglect
I can forgive, But I will not forget

Scarecrow crying
Waiting to die wondering why…”

The evangelical agenda tells us that it is ok to hate. It says love the sinner but hate the sin. It is not our jobs to hate the sin or to place judgment on people. That is God’s place, and God alone should fulfill that task. They say they don’t understand how people can feel that it is alright to kill, even though they kill every time they preach hate. Well the answer is simple; because they told them it was ok! There is a song from a Broadway musical called “Into the woods” that answers their questions, it is called “children will listen.

“How do you say to your child in the night?
Nothing's all black, but then nothing's all white
How do you say it will all be all right
When you know that it might not be true?
What do you do?

Careful the things you say
Children will listen
Careful the things you do
Children will see and learn
Children may not obey, but children will listen
Children will look to you for which way to turn
Co learn what to be
Careful before you say "Listen to me"
Children will listen

Careful the wish you make
Wishes are children
Careful the path they take
Wishes come true, not free
Careful the spell you cast
Not just on children
Sometimes the spell may last
Past what you can see
And turn against you
Careful the tale you tell
That is the spell
Children will listen

How can you say to a child who's in flight
Don't slip away and i won't hold so tight
What can you say that no matter how slight Won't be misunderstood
What do you leave to your child when you're dead?
Only whatever you put in it's head
Things that you're mother and father had said
Which were left to them too
Careful what you say
Children will listen
Careful you do it too
Children will see
And learn, oh guide them that step away
Children will glisten
Temper with what is true
And children will turn
If just to be free
Careful before you say
Listen to me
Children will listen”

These same evangelicals protest abortion by killing abortionists! These same people stand at the edges of pride parades and spew forth hate! These same people stand outside of funerals and scream vile filth at the mourners and relatives of those who are dead. They go to places like Uganda and tell them to commit genocide and a holocaust on their gay citizens. What we need to ask ourselves is this; what kind of words do we speak, how, and who do they impact? We need to ask ourselves if we as a nation can afford this terrible hate that the evangelical agenda espouses? We need to ask ourselves if these people are who we want to emulate and become? If we are honest and right with God then we must stand up and say, No More! The evangelical agenda must die! Evil must be stamped out! And it is up to all of us as God’s children to speak against the agents of the devil who preach the evangelical agenda! Let us reevaluate ourselves and come back to God. Let us reunite with each other, as siblings in life! do we really want to continue allowing our families to be ripped apart? Do we really want to allow anyone to make us feel ashamed? Do we really want to let other people make our love for each other, for our children, brothers, sisters, and parents to be turned into shame and rage? No, it is time for love, and time for healing! most of all it is time for change to come; for us to have hope again! Stop the spread of the evil evangelical agenda. Stop it by not listening to it anymore! Speak against it when it arises. Vote it down when it comes up for election! Use your voice, your choice, and your votes for peace, tolerance, and love! Use your vote for equality! Do that which is right! What kind of legacy do you want to leave our children? let’s end the legacy of silence, hate, and shame, and instead Let us leave a legacy of Love!


I want to leave you with a couple of thoughts; this is not a case where indifference is an option. and secondly i want you to remember an old teaching which states "evil thrives when good men do nothing"! I am asking you that famous question "have you no decency sir, at long last have you no decency"?

Friday, November 6, 2009

state sanctioned gay bashing!

(i had written this first section back when the rainbow lounge raid first took place. the following section i wrote today because i found out that the cops in fort worth are not going to be disciplined or punished for their crimes! and frankly it makes me sick to my stomach that once more cops are getting away with criminal activity, and then have the nerve to arrest people for breaking the law! this is joke, but it is not funny!)

section 1............
So apparently it is acceptable behavior now for the fort worth cops to go into bars and beat people because their gay. And on the anniversary of stonewall no less.
The cops, and the t.a.b.c. are claiming that there was no prejudice, however many people were injured and one man at least was almost killed. State sanctioned gay bashing, hate crimes, and murder. you have to love Texas!

section 2..........

well i guess everyone heard the news about the fort worth police cover up! now they police are saying that they never used excessive force at the rainbow lounge raid! this is bullshit! not only did they not fire these bastards but they gave them a pathetic excuse for a punishment that amounted to less than a slap on the wrist! this is so typical of cops! they would rather protect their own even if they don't deserve it than see that justice is done. they would rather ignore what is right and do what is easy! i for one am tired of people in power having god complexes and being above the law! that what cops are is above the law just like most rich people. they don't have to subject to the law because they make it up as they go along! they can do what ever they want to and never pay the price or deal with the consequences or fall out! they can tazer collage students and old women to the brink of death and it is alright for them to do it. there is no legal action taken against them. they can due to their hatred of gay people break into a club and beat them, and arrest them on trumped up charges and never even be punished! they can beat a defenseless man almost to death, and leave him in a hospital with a bleeding brain, and then not only do they still get to keep their jobs, they are rewarded with some time off! then to top it all off they have the nerve and audacity to be angry that before his almost lifeless body was taken to the hospital that he wasn't given a citation or arrested! there is something rotten in denmark people, and by denmark i mean fort worth! these cops and i mean every last one of them who were involved in this incident need to be fired and forever band from being cops ever again! this is the only action that will make it right! as it stands, firing them should be the least that is done! A public apology from the city and police departments of fort worth need to be issued, polices need to be changed so this type of discrimination does not happen again! however the way things were handled these cops were simply suspended for 3 days for almost beating an unarmed man to death for no other reason than that he was gay! When will we as american citizens stand up and say no more; when will we demand our rights and demand justice be done; when will it stop; when will it end? when will america ever truly become the land of the free and the home of the brave; and stop living in the delusional lie that it already is? we need to wake up people and demand that those in positions of authority and power be held accountable for the actions and wrong doings. this was more than wrong however! this was a hate crime committed by the very cops that are suppose to protect us! this was evil! and whenever human evil presents itself it must be wiped out! come on america and make your stand! stand up for what is really right not just for yourself or your religious beliefs, but what is right for your country as a whole! enough is enough! STAND!


if you want to read about this latest news go to box turtle bulletin and read all available material on the rainbow lounge raid!:)

Two Spirit people section 2; a more in depth veiw of Two Spirits!


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Two Spirit people are what many of the ancient tribes of ..North America.. called homosexual, bisexual, transgendered, and otherwise inclined people! I would say that asexual people would also fall under this category, as well as heterosexuals who didn’t follow the normal patterns of interests in society. If a young boy or girl did not fit into the normal profile they were taken to the medicine people who would determine whether or not they were two spirits. They said two spirits because they believed that two spirits a male, and a female lived in one body. I don’t believe spirits have a gender but instead a gender quality. So I think it is more correct to say in our modern language that they had masculine and feminine qualities and energies as we all do; but theirs was more pronounced than most people one way or the another in a unique fashion, and back then before there wasn't anyone to make them feel ashamed they understood the balance within themselves and they knew how to wield it! They were honored and revered as shamans and artisans! They could assume any role or occupation in society that they wanted to, and they could change their roles and occupations at will! For instance a two spirit man might have been straight, gay, or bisexual, etcetera and been more in touch with his feminine energy. This man could have been a weaver with the women, or a cook, or a “wife”, or any other occupation that was usually reserved for women. A two spirit women might have been straight, lesbian, bisexual, or etcetera and been more in touch with her masculine side. She could have been a warrior, a hunter, or even a “husband”, a leader amongst the women, or any other number of roles that were usually reserved for men! They had the same rights as everyone else, and in point of fact more in some cases! They had the right to get married to whom so ever they desired, and they were revered as great healers with an singularly unique healing energy or power. That all changed with the fifth wave of light skinned people! There were some fair skinned peoples that came over here and lived in harmony with the natives. The first wave, were Viking explorers, followed by the druids, the celtic Christian voyager monks, and later on Asian sailors. Then in the centuries that followed troubles began with the appearance of the Spanish conquistadors, certain famous Italian explorers, the pilgrims (who were religious zealots of the worst kind), and the free-masons and deists who were the “founding fathers”! the first four waves of light skinned people were welcomed by the natives, who accepted them, taught them, learned from them, and even inter-married with them. new tribes were born from these harmonious unions. A few of which still exists today; none so famous as the coastal tribe of natives who have light skin and refer to themselves as the children of Madoc. Madoc was a welsh druid although some stories have him as a celi de’ (an celtic Christian mystic), who came here long before the time of Columbus, and shortly after the time the Vikings were here. He set up the first real white colony in north America He lived in harmony with the native tribal peoples. The natives ended up calling these new half breed tribes the spirit tribes! I am a descendent from the spirit tribes peoples! They were called the spirit tribes due to their lighter skin tones, and often their lighter hair and eye colors.

With the coming of the pilgrims especially the great and golden age of the two spirit medicine peoples came to a horrific end, and the devastating traces of the shameful and hateful events which followed last even unto this very day. The Spanish and Italian conquerors who came here had begun to banish the two spirit people, to torture them into submission, and finally if they failed to convert them into living as the status quo, and by foreign attitudes on so called morality they murdered them. There were in fact many slaughters perpetuated on them. This was one of the first genocides of the two spirit peoples. It hasn’t stopped since then. We see it today in places like Uganda were they are about to pass a bill making homosexuality punishable by death, and we also see it here in the united states where gay people are attacked and murdered in the streets, and are refused the basic human right to marry as they choose! Still we see it in places like England where in the last several years gay people have been the victims of brutal attacks and murders, often in the middle of the streets. And this ladies and gentlemen is what is supposed to pass as Christian ideals and morality? I think not! The Spanish and later the pilgrims began to slaughter and then to “convert” the native peoples to living in white immorality disguised as good religion! They converted them many times on pain death, “convert or die” they said to the tribes. These fear tactics began to work although it would be a few centuries were they began to wipe out natives on a large scale. Maybe if the natives had fought harder for the two spirit peoples, there would have been more peoples to fight back. But they didn’t speak up, they just let their children, friends, and neighbors die or be belittled and made to feel ashamed! There are lessons that our society greatly needs to learn before it is too late for us! The fight over basic equal human rights to gay people is facilitating these lessons for us!

This is why the fight is really important; not just for gay people but for all people! There is a poem that was written by Pastor Martin Niemöller. This poem speaks to the apathy of the German people, and their inaction during the nazi party’s rise to power. It tells why every citizen should be alarmed at the infringement on the rights of their fellow man! The poem is entitled “when first they came…”!
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When First They Came;....
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When first the Nazis came for the communists,
I remained silent;
for I was not a communist.
When they locked up the socialists,
I remained silent;
because I was not a socialist.
When they came for the trade unionists,
I did not speak out;
I was not a trade unionist.
When they came for the Jews,
I remained silent;
I wasn’t a Jew.
When they came for me,
there was no one left to speak out.

When the conquerors came into power they told the native peoples that all of their ancestral ways were bad. They convinced them that they were heathens who needed to be ashamed of their savage and uncivilized ways! The fact that they called them uncivilized is not just a cruel joke, but the worst kind of hypocrisy; that which is self-righteous hypocrisy! They told the native peoples that they were less than, and that they should be alright with being third and fourth class citizens! Despite what the conquerors purported, they were not and never were true Christians. This is evidenced not only by their treatment of the native peoples but also later on by the terrible crimes against humanity during the witch trials and inquisitions!
Now the natives had become like their oppressors and many remain so till this very day! Many of them still blame the “white man” for their horrible lot in life. They say “the white man ruined our ways and our cultures”, and while this maybe true to some extent it does not assume any personal responsibility for letting the white peoples take their cultures away! This attitude also fails to remember that the natives did not stand up for their two spirit brothers and sisters. They didn’t learn the lessons of oppression when it happened to the two spirit people, so they were doomed to repeat the lesson. Many of the natives became so enslaved by the mindsets of the foreign invaders that they believed all their dogmas. The two spirit people were no longer considered valuable members of society. In fact they were not often considered at all, and when they were it was with scorn because they now saw them as abominations, perverts, and parasites, to be “dealt with” and “gotten rid of”! The two spirits did not disappear but went into hiding, themselves truly buying into the concept that there was something inherently wrong with them. They became ashamed and convinced. We still see the results of this thinking today. The most likely group of people to commit suicide today are homosexual teenagers. I myself during my teenage years tried to commit suicide! It is only now that two spirit people have begun to really reemerge into the world at large “coming out of the closet” if you will, and say “we are still here, we are just as human as you, we are still powerful good medicine people, and we will stand and fight for our rights if necessary, and we are not going to hide anymore, and we are not going away”! We are being met with hard opposition, even by tribal so called leaders, who still hold to the mindsets of their oppressors. They have forgotten who they were, who they are, and they have lost the vision of who they are suppose to evolve into being! These so called leaders think themselves victims, of they think themselves white! Only a few years ago in certain tribal councils, the rights of two spirit peoples to get married was voted down by tribal reservation laws. Yet these native leaders seem to think that they are deserving of our recognition and respect; in fact they expect it! We can not give their laws any respect until they give back two spirit peoples all the rights and privileges that were stripped away from them throughout the history of their oppression. The invaders took away those rights and it is time to give them back; to reclaim all the missing pieces of the tribal cultures that were almost wiped out! If these rights are not given back it is an affront to The Great Spirit, and against the truth itself! Two spirit people should be honored and proud for who and what they are, and given recognition for their contributions and enrichment to and of the beauty and fullness of our global society; most especially in the areas of the arts, and in the religious, spiritual, and cultural movements of society! There is a legend about the king of ....Denmark..... The legend says that when the Nazis informed him that they were coming to round up the Jews, he rode out through his kingdom wearing the yellow armband with a David star on it. By ..noon.. time, all of his subjects wore the bands as well, following his example. When the Nazis came they couldn’t distinguish who was Jewish and who was not. So were the Jews of Denmark saved, because the Nazis gave up looking and went away! Many now say this never happened; at least not like this. However this legend provides us with an example of how we should as human beings react when the rights of any group of people are taken away! We should all band together and fight as one to preserve basic equal civil human rights for all people! Maybe if the Christian churches would start acting Christ like, they would have started flying rainbow flags outside their doors to send the message that all people are welcome into the house of God and that hate and discrimination of any kind will not be tolerated by our religion anymore! The story is based on the principle that Christ was trying to teach when he uttered the words “Verily I say unto you, in as much as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me.”! He was identifying himself with the common people; with everyone! There is also an old religious teaching that states that you should be kind to everyone you meet because you never know when you are entertaining angels! This is again based on the same principle.
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Written by Rev. Loush M. O’Raven in the year of our lord 2006, revised and re written in 2009
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Many native americans have made great strides over the past years to correct the wrong doings of certain bad leaders, and we should recognize this and be thankful for it. We should let this give us hope for the future of the human race! Many tribes people today are arguing over the term two spirit! It means this or that they say. Well I think everyone needs to define words like this for themselves! I won’t let other people define me! so I will use the words that I feel comfortable with!
I am a shaman, a healer, a minister, a celi de’ (celtic Christian mystic), and I am a two spirit man! Frankly I don’t really like the word gay because it does not seem to fit many aspects of who and what I am, I use the term because other people are comfortable with it! I prefer the terms queer or fairie personally. I can feel people out there getting mad right now; well go ahead and get mad if you will! I will define myself if I must be defined, no one else will do it to me because I won’t allow it! People define yourselves, stand up, let others take notice, do not falter, do not waver, and do not back down! Never ask for permission, because to ask for permission is to seek denial, and it is better to ask forgiveness than permission. Do not let others define you or try to put you in a box! You are better and bigger than the box. Always define yourself, be authentic, live in your truth; the truth of who and what you are!
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