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I am an Ordained Minister, a Shaman, a Reiki Master Teacher, an Aromatherapist, a Massage Therapist, an Herbalist in training, & a Crystal Healer in training! I am also a Writer! I am one of the Neo- Celí Dé (a form of Celtic christian mysticism based on original early Christianity, & certain Celtic philosophies, perspectives, & certain Druidic elements). I am also a proud member of Clan MacKay. NO PARTIES, JUST PATRIOTISM!

These are a few of my favorite things!;

  • The Harry Potter series! both the movies and the books by J.K. Rowling!
  • Twilight book saga, and movie series by Stephanie Meyer's!

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

The Calling; a poem by L.C. Bellami

~The Calling~

Tell The Truth and shame the devil
The devil that lies in wait inside
leave him then, no place to hide,
crush it down, this awful pride!

The hollow plain that was your heart
filled again with Darkest Art
but The Angel's voice ripped you apart
giving you a chance; a brand new start!

Some say the devil can’t be shamed
Some say devils should never be named
Most know devils can’t be tamed
But did anyone tell you, you can leave them lame?

People tell you to be afraid, but that stone in me was never laid
So fear not said The Angel, let nothing you affright
I took this message all the way, but The Power was far too bright!

The Shades they danced around me, as I was blinded, so Sublime
And all Darkness came for me, as I wrestled the grip of time!

Then The Light of Life it found me, The Beauty broke right through
My heart was then confounded by The God I only thought I knew!

The Truth is Powerful indeed, Faith and Hope made sure
But nothing compares to The Divine rush of Love
That Spark that ignites The Soul, gifted from Above!

Its heat courses through Heart and head, and flows down to your arms and legs
The Call of God was far too real, I lost my mind, thought it meant to kill
But I’d gladly walk dark roads again to hear His Voice break through my Sin
The feel of Your Touch break through my skin,
the back-door left open is how you came in!

The Breath of Life it found me, The Beauty broke right though
It filled my lungs and drowned me, the waters made me new
So come again God’s calling, wash over me enthralling
The lie may be so pretty, but the end results in pity
The Truth laid waste to me, the devil inside made lame,
But The Angel woke within me and led me Home again!

It changed my world completely, unmade me where I stood
The Call can be forgiving, Surrender though you should
The Madness will over take you, the way a lover would!

But let The Madness take you, let The Dark unmake you,
The Darkness it will break you, but Sublime Light will Reshape you
The Light of Life it found me, The Passion broke right through
My heart was then confounded by The God I only thought I knew!

And here I am still standing, left whole by Holy Light
and still I’m gazing upward at The Beauty of the sight
I look directly at it, staring at The Sun
Hoping to again be blinded as I watch The Darkness run!

The devil died inside you, The Heart awoke from Sleep
The Angel is aware now, and you can feel His Heat

Light of Life please find us, Beauty please brake through
Our hearts were left so empty, by absence of The God we never knew!

And I cried out “Please Save me”, take it, eat my sin
Save with Your Kiss, The Breath of Life on skin
I cry, please just rush me, hasten now to touch me
Save me with The Sun, your Love leaves Dark undone!

Our hearts calling one another in communion and delight,
was The Voice of The Almighty that had hidden from our sight
Our denial, All our lies, left bitter darkened skies
And then we just gave in, and surrendered Holy Skin

The Light of Life it found us, The Beauty broke right through
Our hearts were then confounded, by The God we finally knew!


This poem is about two people admitting they love each other after nearly destroying each other by pretending not to! One person was willing to admit it after realizing that somehow the other person had found a way into their heart with out them knowing it, or wanting it! This person also has a personality; that if they see something they want, they take it! The other once felt love and then turned angry after rejection, and grew to hate the other person! But the hate was only a mask to hide the pain of rejection! When they finally surrender to the power of the love between them, they experience Divine Ecstasy and all things in their life are made right! This Poem was inspired by many things, especially the song Breath of Life by Florence and the machine, and the love story of Brian and Justin; characters in the television series Queer as Folk! It is the second in a series of poems I want to do about Love either being a type of damnation or salvation for us! The first poem in this series was Fallen Love, which I posted at the end of an earlier blog!

Written by L.C. Bellami (A.K.A. Rev. Loush M. O’Raven) on the 25th of June / Oak Moon, in the festival season of Bealtaine, in the year of our Lord 2012


Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Book Reading and Signing Virgin!

Today was my first time to go to a public reading and book signing by a famous author whose work I love!!!!! I was and still am so excited about my day lol! Here is my journal entry that I wrote before the event and after!;


Anticipation grew as we waited for the author to arrive! She had written the story of one of those couples; you know the kind! The ones in the fantasy novels whose love literally change the world! As I looked around at all of my fellow fans, I could see the same look in their eyes as in mine! We all dream of a love like that! It is fascinating to me that we are all so different. Many races, religions, personalities, and life styles were all gathered there! We were America! We were the whole earth! Yet we were all drawn here by this one woman’s vision of Love; by the same one hope for love! In that we were all the same! This hope gave me pause to stop and think about the secret life inside everyone! That secret place inside that belongs to us and us alone! That place that we do not invite another soul into. Though we all long for a soul to come that we could feel safe inviting in! We all share this common hope, whether or not we are willing to admit it even to ourselves! This grace, this magnificent hope that lives inside us all brings me to my spiritual knees; in awe of The God of Beauty and Love! This Love is the only Truth; and even to witness The Hope of it, or The Faith in it, causes my soul to worship in spite of myself!

As I sat waiting in the temple of books I let my eyes peruse the various sections! Then the author arrived! The kind and pretty store employee, ever helpful; came to make sure everyone had what they needed, was ready, and understood how things would happen! Then a hush fell over the crowd as she introduced the author! Applause erupted as the author stepped onto the floor! She opened her book and began a passionate reading of her work! It was a reading so well done and so heartfelt that Shakespeare himself would have been proud and moved to tears! She captivated us with her spellbound words, taking us into a world she was herself ready to leave behind! Afterwards she spoke a little to us on the nature of her work and her vocation! She spoke about Love and Inspiration! Then she proceeded to do a question and answer period! The crowd was shy; only four or five questions! A girl asked about process; good, I didn’t have to! Another asks a question she has already guessed the answer to; which we had discussed before the event! This caused us to laugh (Chapter 16, those of you in on the joke will understand). I was the second person in line to speak to the author and get her to sign my books; as I was in group A and wearing purple! It came my turn, and she signed my books asking if I had read the latest installment in the series and wondering which was my favorite! She was so nice to talk to and I found myself unable to ask the thousand questions that were in my head! Next I had my picture taken with the lovely woman! The contrast between her and I was sadly very stark indeed! Then the next in line took their turn and I left; and as I left, I considered the day. It was a good day! The book series was Fallen, and the Author was Lauren Kate!


Lauren Kate and I lol

Lauren Kate, My Friend Tammy, and Myself! lol!!!!! This day was so fun!




A Poem I wrote Inspired by (Not based entirely on) The Fallen series By Lauren Kate;


~ Fallen Love ~

3 words “I love you”
You said, “I love you”
The Heavens opened and I fell!

A blast of Truth ripped open the starry floor,
and the sky swallowed me!

Fallen, Torment, Passion, Rapture
The Divine Revelation of Love before The Throne, ripped even the glory of Heaven apart at the seems!

The Chief Angel’s words, as he was officiating the marriage of our souls echo even now through my head; ringing like accusing church bells! “What God has joined together, let No man put asunder”!

But what if our ending was caused by no man, but by The Throne itself?

What then of our Great Love?

Love so powerful that it split the Heavens, and the earth itself quaked; like our bodies; when our passions ignited the fiery stars above!

3 words, “I Love you”
You said “I Love you”
The Heavens opened, and I fell

My wings opened but could not grip the air enough to catch me, as the earth rushed to meet me! Heavy things shedding weight and feathers as I plummeted! Blood like tear drops were lost in the high places!

When my body full of Grace hit the ground, the sound of it shattered the peace of the universe and time itself stopped as the wave reverberated back to me!

I laid curled like a baby in the embrace of the earth longing for death, longing for your embrace!

Your words hung there in The Eternal Heavens of my mind! You claim that you Love me, but where are you now, after such a declaration? Was it only I who fell? The sky swallowed me, and I could not see!

And where are the rest of The Heavenly Hosts? Where are their ancient celestial songs to sing the sun to my heart again and awaken me from my ancient sleep! Rouse me Starry ones, I pray of thee, rouse me to Love still again with thy sweet refrains!

3 words, “I love you”,
You said, “I love you”,
The Heavens opened and I fell…

and I fell!


By Lucien O’Raven (A.k.a. Rev. Loush M. O’Raven) In the year of our Lord 2012, on the Eighteenth day of the month of Oak-Moon / June, during the Celtic Festival season of Litha!

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